Are you actively seeking to be fit? How's your wardrobe? Are you keeping up with the latest trends? What's your beauty regimen? Are your teeth white? How's your tan? Honey.. it's a lot to stay on top of. Now... MORE importantly, how is your mindfulness, your self-love, your intention and attention towards what you are doing? How are you treating yourself and others, and how do you treat your body?
I have always been an athlete. By athlete I mean that I made the cheerleading team, fell down at pep-rallies, fell off shoulders and face planted onto the track surrounding the football field, and managed to break my ankle by landing on it funny the same day I made the basketball team. I use the word athlete lightly in my little world. Three years ago, I decided I needed to hit some stuff. Imagine Phoebe running carelessly through Central Park and you have a vision of me spasmatically getting through class week after week, year after year for three years. Don't get me wrong, I was strong. I gained some muscle, some mass, some attitude and some serious mojo. I was doing what I needed to do during that time of my life but I wasn't being very mindful with my movements or my mind (even though I was probably supposed to).
Let's fast forward to this week...I started the very impressive BARRE3 routine and man.. is it awesome! I have noticed that the words "Intent" and "Mindful" are used commonly. Any "barre" experience or experience with grace in general can be summed up by two events...
I am going to try to get my heart centered, my mind quiet and my grace as intact as it will get, and let my inner warrior "athlete" shine with this newfound experience and I encourage you to find something equally spectacular to add to your life.
Love, Coach Kim
I start my day in worship singing this song.
I've seen you move, come move the mountains and I believe, I'll see you do it again. You made a way ,where there was no way and I believe, I'll see you do it again. (Elevation Worship)
and then I say a little something like this letter below.. today it's loud in my heart and I'll share because some of you may be in the same place.
If you are going through a painful time, I encourage you to get real with the battle happening and to get on your knees, God isn't waiting for us to get it right or to pray right before He heals the situation my friend. I often thought I was failing and that's why she's not healed. I don't know what His timing is but I do know the Spirit lifts me and gets me through the dark times and the prayer and worship sustains me.
To Satan, the dark angel, the evil one, the one we don't mention.. whatever your name is,
Let us get clear. She is NOT yours to have. My daughter is not her addiction, she is not up for grabs, her life is not indeed over. She is going to be louder and stronger and help more people than you can ever imagine. Your battle is lost and worthless so move on. Lose the grip on my child. She is not worth your time because you will never win. The bracelet she still wears today claims that she is a believer. She has been baptized and has declared out loud that Jesus is her savior and by the blood shed of Jesus Christ her battle is won and she will be victorious. I see your actions. I see the self hate, double-mindedness and confusion you've inundated her with. My God is stronger and He is acting on her behalf just as He is in me. She is not yours to destroy. Move on. She will survive your planned destruction. I will claim the victory over and over and the more you try to destroy her, the stronger her story and victory will become. I know you want her because she is valuable but she is a child of God. Period. Crawl away, I demand it now. She's not for you. Victory will be had.
I don't live in fear of you. My God and His plan are bigger than any agenda you have.
In HIS name,
Mamma Bear, Child of God
My heart is growing weary but I will count on your promises and I will believe no matter your timing. I know you love me, you love her. I know you are here. Give us the endurance during this battle and help the victory be near.
Friends, join me in this pleading for my girl. Join me in learning to Lean on Him no matter your pain, no matter your circumstance. Get your battle gear on and get to your knees.
Your promise still stands, great is thy faithfulness. I'm still in your hands. This is my confidence, you've never failed me yet. (Elevation Worship)
I gotta stay busy during difficult seasons of life. It is just the way I operate. I want to remain vigilantly seeking purpose and productivity so that I can avoid a mental fall. I stick to a schedule, I work out, I eat right, I stick to what I know. I have a certain time of day dedicated to my "heavy duty" prayer time. I have learned to compartmentalize the daily structure of my life from the pain in my heart from certain elements. I "harden my heart" (thanks Quarterflash circa 1981) from the things that are too painful to dwell on and I keep myself busy.
BUT THEN...I started listening to Jenn Johnson and Bethel. I started meeting with incredibly disciplined and faithful God warriors and I started thirsting for more. I began to wonder what I could gain from stopping the busy, busy syndrome. I decided to start by giving up one thing in my daily "busy time" structure to grow more intimate in my walk with a God wanting to woo me with His love.
I started a new plan on my Bible You Version App entitled "The Pursuit" and I love it. I listened to our Pastor last weekend talking about the Holy Spirit and I listened.
I am reminded, as I learn to slow down, to ask myself what I am seeking and why? I don't want to stay busy because I have nothing else to do, but rather I was choosing to stay busy to keep my spirits up. What I've learned this week is that when I am able to slow down and to ask the Holy Spirit to just kinda reintroduce himself to me, I soak in the still moments long enough to breathe in what Galatians 5:22 tells us.. "the fruit of the Holy Spirit is: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, intelligence, and self control" and boy, could I use a dash of that throughout my day instead of the busy bee mentality. Are you pursuing peace within and a re-connect with God or are you pursuing "busy?"
Allow me to encourage you to stop and breathe "in" today. Try to add a little something unusual and slightly even uncomfortable to your life that might allow you to experience something you may be seeking but didn't know it.