Good and Bad. Sadness and Joy. Hope and Despair. Darkness and Light. Do you often feel these at the same time? If so, which one has the biggest hold over you? For me, the answer lies in which day you happen to ask me. I want to say that I always live on the positive side of those choices each time, but I can't, because this is not yet eternity, and I am not yet whole.
Although my clients are women, this image spoke to me. Here he is, clearly strong with his towel ready to wipe the sweat and possible tears away during whatever he has set out to do. He stopped, right in the middle of the tracks. Full surrender. Head bowed. Ready to throw the towel he is clinging on to.
I believe He's saying, "How long oh, Lord, how long?" I also believe he spends time mourning, asking, praying, seeking, crying, and then he musters the strength to get up, walk away, and focus on the light.
You see my friends, life is not often all good or all bad. Most days it's a mixture of things we would rather see come to an end, and things we are so very thankful for.
A friend of mine just lost his beautiful daughter, and his son and wife still need him. Darkness and Light.
A mom I know has an adult child with Cancer, and another one having her first child. Sadness and Joy.
I have a daughter with two severe illnesses and she's not seeking help, and I also have a daughter starting her life in college with great and joyful anticipation. Despair and Hope.
I have a friend with a son who is starting a new school and is overjoyed, and a son with chronic pain. Good and Bad.
I can sit here or I can sit in front of my clients and I can tell them that God is Real. That Faith is believing in what you can't see. I can read passage and scripture from Ephesians, Psalms and Romans. I can't, however, tell you how to keep on trusting and believing and praying despite the sadness. I can't tell you to only focus on the good. I want to, but I wouldn't be real.
I can tell you that one day we will all understand. I can tell you that there is goodness, every single day when we ask God to remind us. I can tell you that God wants to hear from you, on the tracks, off the tracks, on your knees, lying in bed, head bowed or fists raised. He has not left us. He has not left you.
Look around for the helpers in your darkness (Mr. Rogers) and provide light to others when you can. I want you to keep going. I want you to breathe in enough to let the goodness in, in whatever package that's being delivered in.
He has indeed not forsaken us. He is indeed still here. I am also here, for you. Be FREE.