 oLet me be real. I may delete this later. Why, you ask? It takes a certain person to lay it all out there; hanging it all out to dry; feeling a certain level of vulnerability. It also takes a certain person to say, "Okay, God. I will."
I've had this desire in me for months now to blog again and to post this but when I asked God what He wanted me to say, he said ALL of it and I said... "oh, okay, maybe later." It's later. Let me introduce myself to you. Kim, 51. Native Austinite/Dripping Springer. Mamma to two beautiful women and step mom to three (insert adjectives depending on the day) teen boys who live with us. I like coffee and I like clean wine and on top of coaching, I also sell both because it brings me joy; just like coaching you does. I have two dogs whom I quite possibly make more comfortable than I do myself on any given day. I love spin class, boxing, weights and walking my dogs. My husband teaches me more about myself than all of my years of college and grad school ever did (thanks MP). We are and always will be a work in progress but we strive to be parents that our kids look up to and we strive to be a blessing to one another through patience, love and understanding with a certain element of humor that comes with blending our families and raising our kids. The UGLY Three time Anorexia survivor with a bill of health so bad, I simply shouldn't be alive starting at 13. Four treatment centers to get well which involved very painful goodbyes time and time again. More medication to "fix" whatever was wrong with me than anyone should've ever been on and more shame, pain and guilt than anyone should ever burden themselves with. Treatments centers to detox from the meds and more painful goodbyes and shame. Darkness so great it nearly took me out, three times starting at age 18. Queue the shame. A significant and life altering loss for my daughters and myself during a season of having to be apart. The pain seemed insurmountable and the betrayal during that time felt like daggers to the soul while I tried to believe in myself and my worth and to fight. Losing a son in the third trimester with 8 weeks to go and never being able to hold him. I love you Jacob Christian. A time so painful watching my oldest battle addiction, and months turning into years where it was all I could do to keep breathing as I waited and prayed in a way I never knew I could. Losing my sis to cancer when so much more needed to be said and shared and laughed about. Witnessing my baggage spill over into my relationships. The BEAUTIFUL Loving myself, no scales, and an Eating Disorder that has been quiet for two decades. Founding "Saving Eve" to help other women find freedom from their own Eating Disorder. Starting a jail ministry to pray for the hurting women with addiction while incarcerated. Leading fellow parents on their path of understanding addiction. Deliverance three times with a women I met during my darkest days. Becoming a certified and trained Life Coach. Holding the door open at church each Sunday on the same property where I grew up. Writing and publishing a romance novel and having my children see me accomplish a goal. Regaining years that the enemy took away and watching life restored. Learning how to battle and pray and meeting those that taught me on the way. War rooms where my greatest hurts turned into my greatest triumphs. Realizing the Holy Spirit snuck in and took over. My passion for singing worship songs loud and pretending I'm on stage. The opportunity to raise not one, but three stepsons (two of whom would've been the same age as Jake). Watching the oldest thrive and find herself and kick ass all the way while helping others and doing exactly what she wants to be doing. Watching my youngest daughter rise up and navigate despite what she's seen and endured and seeing her bad ass self with a servants heart living her best life. Finding a certain acceptance and love for myself through my own healing transformation. Being on the receiving end of my clients calls, texts and tears because they know I get it. This is the Hallmark version but I just want you to know that whatever it is that brings you to me, please know I see your heart. I do get it. You are a rising up warrior too and I'll help equip you with that beautiful battle gear HE has for you. I focus on YOU, my client, when we meet but I do feel the need to share this so you know who I am and what I'm made of. I will encourage you but I will also challenge you. I will listen but I will ask you to act. This is your adventure; your one beautiful life. Let's go get it, shall we? |
